I didn't get the Saturday jobs I applied for. The one I really wanted at specsavers didn't even tell me, but I went in today and Sarah, who works there and who's job it was that I applied for, told me that she'd spent all day 'training the new girl' I was gutted. I feel like such a failure. I'm a perfectionist - I always get A's, always work to come top of the class, I have this obsession that I have to be the best. So when I get turned down from a job because I wasn't the best it makes me feel like such a shitty person, a complete failure, a total loser. After my friend told me I just left, I couldn't even stand being in that stupid shop, with that bitch of a manager who made me feel so small in that interview, and the annoying salesgirls with their stupid perfect unscarred arms and their fake laughs and cheesy smiles. I may not smile, but at least I'm genuine, at least I'm not some shitty fake person. I have no friends at college, nobody wants to employ me, and even my family don't want to spend time with me. What is wrong with me?? I'm the biggest loser ever, and such a failure.